“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear-not absence of fear”, Mark Twain
All of us with fibromyalgia suffer from repressed emotions, and are coping with overstimulation and sensory processing sensitivity. Never has it been so challenging as it has been in the past two weeks with the world on the brink of disaster. What is to be done? We can’t continue to watch the news on a regular basis without feeling the brunt of world wide fear, anxieties, hatred, rage, and turmoil. We also can’t hide in isolation from outside influences. We are situated betwixt and between our own personal lifelong anxieties and fearful for the volatile and chaotic nature of current politics.
I have grappled with the realization that we with fibromyalgia have certain personality characteristics in common while at the same time there are many differences among us. Personally I am an introvert while needing to be around people on my own terms. I have a lively interest in people, but no one is all one thing. Good and bad, simple and complex, happy and sad, afraid and courageous- its all a mix. But, we all have in common our anxiety, hyper-vigilance, and overly emphatic nature. For those reasons we are sensitive to injustice. We are intuitive about the good and the bad in others and quick to judge ourselves, particularly if we believe we are not courageous. We live in fear we will be found lacking in strength of character, deriding ourselves over even mentioning our symptoms of pain and fatigue.